Soft hair
I insisted on an abusive relationship, because I thought that one day everything would change for the better and that things would be at peace. Only, the more I tried, the more that whole situation caused me pain.more My feelings ravaged me intensity than usual. All that hurt me daily; deepening my wounds, which bled constantly, and brought with it a pain that tore me apart, even more, inside.
What seemed to me, at first, an attitude of love and care, gradually revealed itself as an unhealthy jealousy. And, gradually, it was transformed into an obsessive feeling of distrust of betrayal, of imaginary intrigues, without any foundation. If there needs to be any reason at all, when what you are really looking for is simply having the pleasure of subjecting the other to your tyranny.
Where did I go wrong, to be where I am?
And how do I save myself from this whole situation?
I get lost in the most different thoughts, looking for someone who knows how to find a way to escape, in vain, at least for today.
It's days, months, years of being subjected to this ordeal of pain, suffering and humiliation. Sufferings that do not bring me any redemption. In addition to the sick satisfaction of someone who once committed to loving and caring for me. I know what I need to do, I just don't know how to do it, and if I'll be safe by the end of the day.
I can't take all this physical and psychological suffering anymore. And listening to people with their easy and banal solutions to solve problems that are not theirs.
Many tell me that I am the cause of my problems; that I looked for this suffering and that I want to be in the life I'm living.
Not !
Enough of all this suffering! I'm tired, disoriented... I'm going to run away tonight!
Living a secluded life, in some corner, is better than this life I'm living.
I can already see the colors of the sun. I feel the taste of life in my mouth. I believe it is a good sign.
Como humanidad, en este momento, atravesamos la Historia; somos parte de ella y enfrentamos este desafío que nos pone frente a nuestros mayores miedos. Como dijo un poeta: “el miedo ciega nuestros sueños”. Y los sueños están cargados de sentimientos, deseos de realización. En estos tiempos, ¡soñemos! El miedo es natural, protege la vida, pero el sueño lo impulsa. El amor, la belleza, el arte, la música, la poesía, es todo lo que mueve el sueño humano. Invitamos a todos a enfocarse en sus sueños y olvidarse de sus miedos. Sumérgete en una buena lectura en lugar de encender la televisión en las noticias. Escuchar buena música, contemplar un hermoso paisaje, todo un arte. Respira hondo y alcanza la certeza de que todo esto pasará, para que nuestros sueños se hagan realidad. Cuídate también por dentro. Resistiremos con poesía en el corazón.
Sobre el autor
Carlos de Campos nació en Biritiba Mirim, São Paulo, en 1980. Enamorado de Poetrix. En 2017 comenzó a escribir sus versos en las redes sociales, expresándose de manera profunda, en reflexiones y observaciones sobre la condición humana, entre otros; analizando su organización, desempeño y clima emocional, de forma ligera pero concisa e incisiva. No dejándose condicionar por normas, indagando con detenimiento en los rincones más conflictivos de la existencia y expresándolos poéticamente a través de su mirada minuciosa.
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